going through a gender crisis, label suggestions / discussion / anyone feel the same??

icosa0550 2/23/2024 04:34 pm 649

so i've known i wasn't a girl (im afab) since i was literally old enough to perceive the difference between girls and boys. like it's just been a forever thing and i never thought much about it until i wanted to start changing my appearance and i learned about being trans and yeah.

i use he/him and i'm okay with they/them if i'm presenting feminine. i present as male most of the time, like redneck construction worker male. like half my closet is wrangler jeans, solid color tees, and boots. but the other half of the time i'm either giving masc lesbian (i'm not a lesbian, i've been frequently asked if i am though lmao), or hyper feminine baggy sweater boho girl or goth chick depending on the vibe that day. like theres a very large flux in how i present and it's all based on the day. like some days i wake up and you couldn't waterboard me into presenting fem. i've never had an issue with this, i just go with the vibe and it's fine. the dressing hyper feminine is a fairly recent development and i've been getting lots of questions about it. like "i thought you were a boy" or "why do you use he/him if you dress like a girl" and like what do i tell people??? i sometimes say im gender non-conforming or label non-conforming but that doesn't go over well irl.

i've read about all the labels and what they mean and like none of them quite land with me. like demiboy, demiflux, libraflux, maleflux, nonbinary, agender, and genderqueer all sound close but its not quite it. genderqueer feels the closest but like what if i dont have a gender but maybe sometimes its there a little?? and sometimes its masc but im not just male?? but dressing feminine doesn't make me less male?? like in the way that drag queens are still guys yknow

like it's so inconsistent even the labels meant to describe changing genders don' t catch all of it lmao. i cant be the only person that feels like this right?? like idk i feel crazy does anyone know what i'm talking about??

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0_0Ash0_0
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Feb 25, 2024 2:21 pm

Dude I dress how ever the HECK I want people shouldn't get an input on what I wear especially if it's negative.Wear what makes you feel like you. And for the whole labels thing you can literally just pick one that resonates with you and if you find out later on that this isn't who you are then hey no one gets to tell you no. I have literally changed like 4 different times in the span of 3 years. I don't know how this is gonna sound but it's kinda like trying on clothes you might think this looks okay from one angle then you turn and see that it doesn't look right so you try a different one on.( Please don't flame me I'm just trying to help) But like literally do what you want and dress how you want no one can stop you from that.

c00d
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Feb 25, 2024 6:26 pm

tbh im just unlabeled for the most part at this point but i do get the not entirely male feeling

its like. for me 75% m 25% f (if that) but theyre permanently mixed together. think slime or liquid. im sort of a boy whos kind of a girl

xenogender_bunny_kid
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Feb 25, 2024 7:24 pm

At the end of, like, 2020, I was questioning my gender SO hard it was destroying my mental health, so I understand the struggle. Something that I'm glad I realized/learned is that any gender is just as valid as the next because they're all made up. Being candygender or cutegender is just as valid as being a guy, since all genders are made up. The concept of gender is just a social construct, and some people view it differently than others. Your relationship with gender doesn't have to "make sense" to anyone else. Remember that there are people who will accept you, and try not to focus on the people who might not.

From what I can tell, you could be agenderflux. Or you could just be a guy, since presentation and gender are two different things (just because you're a trans guy doesn't mean you're not a real guy, and real guys can present as femininely as they want). I recommend xenogenders bcuz they changed my life. But I can't tell you what you are because that's up to you. If you are really looking for a label and that's what's stressing you out (that happened to me), I recommend taking the enneagram test to see if you're a type 4, because that's what I am and taking that test really helped me with things.

belleoftheballnchainz
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Feb 26, 2024 7:26 am

ik how you feel. it sucks fr :[ i wish i could give you advice but idk either

icosa0550
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Feb 26, 2024 8:39 pm

fr thanks to everyone who commented, it seriously helped me out! i did some reading about the labels everyone mentioned, and i discovered bigenderfluid which i feel sums it up perfectly so thats what i'm going with! i never realized how many labels there were, its crazy to me how well documented really obscure / new labels are on the gender wiki. reading through all of them (especially the xenogenders) was really neat, yall should totally do that if you haven't already

Aggressive_Daikons
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Feb 26, 2024 8:44 pm

if you want a specific label, maybe melleflux (safe wiki link) is what you’re describing? The reason I know is because I have the opposite problem. identifying as female, but masculine presenting (femil). This might not actually be it, but hey, if it helps. I know having a hyperspecific label can be comforting sometimes.

Edit: saw the latest comment, but leaving this up just incase, for anyone else looking for labels. Congratulations though for finding a label that fits!!

going through a gender crisis, label suggestions / discussion / anyone feel the same??

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