i fucking hate my stepdad. whenever he comes over with no warning it just makes me wanna curl up in a ball and cry he makes me so anxious and nervous to do anything. i cant eat while hes there. i cant shower while hes there. i feel like i cant do anything while hes here, even though nobodys telling me i cant do these things but myself. it feels wrong to do anything in front of him. he always comes at the worst times and its usually when my moms at work, which makes it so much worse. he doesnt even do anything to me, hes overly nice to me, but knowing the things hes said and done to my stepsibling just makes it so i cant fucking stand him. hes like a fucking manchild. dont fucking apologize i dont care, and i dont wanna fucking talk to you. i just wanna go to my room but that feels wrong too. we're not even in the same room most of the time but he just makes me feel so restricted and scared to do anything. i hate him i hate him i hate him please just fucking go away
and i know im not supposed to vent here but i really feel like i dont have any other options, and im sorry about it
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