Pretend your having one last conversation with them.

akai 6/3/2021 05:49 pm 2159

pretend this is the last conversation your having with the person who hurt you the most, pretend I’m them, feel free to scream, cry, insult me, pretend I’m them, and you can say whatever you want to me.

here’s mine:

TW: su!c!d3

after all I did you just left? After all the hours I spent laying in bed waiting for a text back, the hours I spent checking up on you, the hours we laughed, cried, and smiled together you just left. No goodbyes or anything. Why? Just why. You know I’m so unstable and can’t handle emotions well at all, you knew I would be crying over you, and you still talk to all of my friends, you still talk to him. He hurt you didn’t he? He hurt me to. If only you had known, he pretended he was going to commit su!c!d3 after you made me leave him. But you still talk to him everyday. You look at me like I’m the one who hurt you, and maybe I did but you hurt me too, stop pretending I wasn’t there, I was, but your the one who left me. It’s not my fault. You could have at least said goodbye, I loved you.

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akai
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Jun 4, 2021 10:53 am

@Sh4mp00_T4st3s_B4d: i'm so sorry that all happened to you but the spinel part-- BUT F4^K BROOKE MAN.

junathenobody
Member

Jun 4, 2021 7:19 am

tw abandonment, fake friendship

a***r. i'm ready to forgive you. it's been 2 years and it's time for me to move on. but what you need to know is how bad you hurt me. the day i found out how you had been treating me behind my back hit like a truck. i was crushed, devestated. i was so happy with you. we were great friends, but you also had to be friends with them. they hurt me too and you did nothing. you sat there and watched her bully me and even rip up the drawing i made. i feel like they influenced you to do the things you did to me. i think you mean well, but you're going in the wrong direction. it's my fault too, for getting so attached to people. im sorry.

Gay
Member

Jun 4, 2021 6:49 am

(tw: loss of an animal and seizures)

(not anyone that hurt me but i miss my bubby)

hey bubs i love you. i hope your seizures wont get worse. your little white whisker is so cute ^^

im sorry you had to pass like that

there is so much i want to show you and i want to pet your scraggly fur one more time

holly would have loved you

you were such a grumpy old man x)

trinity hasnt been doing well since your death. shes so much thinner and wont eat much of any food we give her.

she misses you.

me and silas have been finding mummified poos you made behind the tv

your stomach wast doing that great, was it :/

it was funny when you had to get fluid injected and it rolled down your foot xD it looked so goofy

i lub you stinky poo <3

camisado
Member

Jun 4, 2021 6:16 am

(max istg dont read this, if you dont idc but. also tw for caps)

to kazuichi/travis/sam: i tried to make you happy. all i wanted was to see you happy. I broke up with you bc you weren't happy. then you spread rumors about me? IVE LOST SO MANY PEOPLE BC OF YOU. one of the people i loved the most left me bc of you. i lost my bf, he left me bc of fucking you. I INTRODUCED MY BF TO YOU, YOU TWO ARE TOGETHER BC OF ME, WITHOUT ME, YOU WOULD BE NOTHING. I helped you get friends, i helped you in your panic attacks, i helped you during your bad times. i listened to you vent, i tried to help, and you said i did. you said you loved me, but the minute i got close to someone else you left me. and now, due to the fact i tried to make you happy, ive lost 4 people. IVE LOST 4 OF MY FRIENDS AND EVEN ONE OF MY NOW EXS BC OF YOU. and its not like i left you to die in the dirt either, ive tried to fix your relashinship so we can be friends again, i gave you MY BINDER, i gave you things, i said hi to you, i tried to talk to you, AND YOU JUST IGNORED ME AND TALKED BAD ABOUT ME BEHIND MY FUCKING BACK. YOU CALLED ME FAT, YOU CALLED ME UGLY, YOU SAID IM A DISGUSTING WHORE. go kys. idc anymore.

to river: i fucking hate you. i listened to you vent, i helped you, i protected you, you loved me, and i loved you, then you just,,,, left? after everything i did for you? what did i do? you say im toxic bc im FUCKING HYPER????? ihy. all ive done to you was help. i was your friend when nobody else was. and then you leave me for one of my exes??? WHAT THE FUCK?????

Sh4mp00_T4st3s_B4d
Member

Jun 3, 2021 8:39 pm

TW: abandonment, swearing, all caps, assumed transphobia (its a bit confusing but you will understand if you read it)

First it was her. At first, right in the middle of quarantine it was her. We we’re best friends for years, you knew that. She was the only one I had for a long time, but then, she just stopped. She stopped responding, stopped calling, stopped talking to me. Just disappeared, out of thin air, no reason, no cause. I texted her for weeks, months, why did she abandon me. She knew I needed her. Texts about how I was completely alone, I had no one to talk to. No support. But it was my fault, right? It had to hae been. Until one day she had the fucking guts to tell me that I was the one being sensitive, and that “oh i just didnt feel like talking to anybody.” SHE DIDNT FEEL LIKE TALKING TO ANYBODY? REALLY? IS THAT HER EXCUSE? She tormented me for weeks on end, and I knew she was available. She wasn’t busy. She had time to tell me that atleast she wasn’t fucking dead but no, she didn’t. Well I mean, she was a pathological liar, so I should have known right? So I was done with her. She had the audacity to say that because “oh well you have a nice house!” As an excuse for fucking leaving somebody. I moved on, of course I will keep that trauma forever, she quite literally fucking Spinel’d me. And then there was the next one. The supposedly bff that was helping me through the first bitch, but she ended up being just as bad. We grew farther apart and soon i just did not matter anymore, YouTube and video games were worth more than I ever was. So she blocked me out of the blue for “not talking to her enough” when she wasn’t the one responding. A few months go by, its 2021 now. And then, it was your turn. The person who quite literally watched every single other person in my life leave me. And of course you just had to time it for once I came out to you, for being trans. Then you stopped responding. I would check in everyday, all the messages would deliver, but you never saw. It was exactly the same as the first time. Then one day the messages stopped delivering, and thats when I knew you blocked me. I figured oh well based on the info I have gathered it had to have been because either you didn’t except me, or your parents found out and made you stop talking to me. The first possibility didn’t make sense though, because you already accepted me being gay. Then, through a series of connections I was able to get a message from you, you said that it wasn’t either of those options, that you can’t tell me why, and that you also think you might be bisexual. What the ACTUAL FUCK. YOU HAD THE FUCKING AUDACITY TO FUCKING LEAVE ME AFTER YOU SAW EVERY SINGLE OTHER PERSON DO THE SAME. AND THEN YOU JUST SAY YOU CANT TELL ME AND THAT YOU ALSO MIGHT BE QUEER? WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THAT. YOU CHOSE TO TRAUMATIZE ME. YOU CHOSE TO HURT ME AND MAKE ME HATE MYSELF MORE THAN I ALREADY DO. FUCK YOU BROOKE. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU FOR ALL THAT YOU DID TO ME AND ALL THAT YOU HURT ME. I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL FOR ETERNITY ALONG WITH CADENCE AND THE OTHERS. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

Sorry I know this was very long I just had to get it out.

Wii
Member

Jun 3, 2021 8:11 pm

TW: all caps, foul language, religious and political themes and su1c4dal thoughts

Please please please just get the fuck out of my head i cant fucking stand you why did i become friends with you like jesus this and jesus that like shut the fuck up i cannot stand you. you sound like a bigot wtf this is why i hate religion your the reason why i hate religion i dont have anything against it per se but you fucking suck and so do you, grandma. im not out but stop shoving your nasty ass homophobic agenda in my face oH wHy dO yOu GeT sO qUiEt wHen I TaLk abT tHeSe tHiNgs SHUT THE FUCK UP I DO NOT SUPPORT YOUR POLITICAL VIEWS AND ID RATHER FUCKING KMS BEFORE SAYING I AGREE WITH U YOU BOTH NEED TO KUCKING SHUT UP AND LET ME DIE IN PEACE OR SOME SHIT IDFK I FUCKING HATE MYSELF WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK AT LEAST SCHOOLS ALMOST OVER LMAO

andrewshotboyfriend
Member

Jun 3, 2021 7:53 pm

not about people just need to rant.

i HATE ppl who do this "certin thing." unless youre a fictive/factive alter, have psychosis, or have other mental illness you have no right to do this certain thing. it is otherwise COMPLETELY INVALID.

i hate all the people who do it. it makes me sick. i cant do this it makes our system feel so invalid. people with psychosis have to feel so bad. it makes PA's seem like a game. gross people

roadk1ll66
Member

Jun 3, 2021 7:26 pm

(TW: a LOT of swearing holy s-, s3lf h4rm, slurs, racism, homophobia, transphobia, basic ass white male POLICE OFFICER (this guy is so gross I swear), dr*gs, starving/throwing up food purposely, certain parts are in all caps cause i’m rly frustrated with this guy smh)

(this isn’t a person who hurt me, but somebody who i honestly can’t think of somebody i hate more than them just because of all the fucking god awful things they’ve said to my s/o)

why are you literally everything i hate in one person?

like, you literally just humiliate your child in front of everybody for being trans and polysexual? WHAT RIGHT DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE?? You didn’t even know them for the first 8 years of their life because you left a DRUG ADDICT- PREGNANT- WITH YOUR CHILD??? And then you had the AUDACITY, to just UP AND LEAVE???? Do you know how shitty you make them feel? Telling them that they’re a fag, that their friends/bf are fags? And how do you think they feel when you ridicule what they enjoy and what makes them happy? You never even support them. All they want is acceptance from you, all they ever say is good things about you despite everything you’ve done. How do you think they feel being told non binary doesn’t exist, and that they’re just a confused little bitch? HOW DO YOU THINK THEY FEEL BEING CALLED SLURS BY THEIR PIECE OF SHIT “FATHER” WHO TREATS THEM WORSE THAN THEIR OWN MOTHER WHO WAS A LITERAL ADDICT????? You steal away everything from them, so why do you keep TRYING to find ways to make them feel like garbage about themselves? Even after you’ve taken away everything they care about away from them, you still even FAT SHAME THEM??? YOU REALIZE YOU’RE THE REASON THEY STARVE THEMSELF RIGHT??? THE REASON THEY FORCE THEMSELVES TO THROW UP CONSTANTLY?? ALL THEY WANT IS TO BE GOOD ENOUGH, AND ALL YOU DO IS MENTALLY ABUSE THEM. YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I WAS ABLE TO DO NOTHING BUT SIT THERE ON A VIDEO CALL AND WATCH THEM SLIT THEIR FUCKING WRISTS OPEN?!?? You’re an awful parent, how dare you. You shouldn’t even have the right to call yourself a parent. You even call all their friends slurs. You hate everybody. You’re just out to hurt anybody who isn’t some bitchy ass racist homophobe like you. You’re a literal asswipe. When will you just ever stop making them feel bad? Can you PLEASE just accept them for who they wanna be. It’s not hurting anybody. Gosh, I hope you die alone because quite frankly, I would never wish that on anybody- but you honestly just deserve it.

(sorry i might just end up deleting this-)

Saplingsys
Member

Jun 3, 2021 7:07 pm

This isnt to/about a specific person, but I just need to rant about this. //TW: talks about (spiritual) kinning, mention of reality checking, mention of derealization//

Why do people always joke about spritual kinning. Or just believe that its not real. Or reality check people who do it. As someone who spiritually kins, I see something and the memories of my past lives/timelines come rushing back to me. Some days I am so upset that I can’t talk to the people who were in my other timelines/past lives. Some days I just feel like I dont belong in this universe, and have a depersonailization/derealization episode. Its real, and its hard sometimes.

Of course, there are many good things about it too! I love watching the shows/animes that the characters im kin of are from. I love seeing fanart and cosplays of those characters, It makes me so happy! I love connecting with people who have the same experiences as me.

There are many good things about spiritual kinning, but there are also hard things about it that people dont talk about often

pawbean
Member

Jun 3, 2021 6:26 pm

(tw: swearing)

im so tired of seeing you in the hallways and i dont wanna hear your voice i know i shouldnt feel this bad about what you did but it still makes me so angry i gave in to that. if i think about you too much i feel sick. you made me feel horrible and i still feel horrible when i see you or hear you or f-cking think of you. my brain makes your face pop up randomly and im so tired. i hope you dont recognize me. im scared to talk to my friends if youre around because youll know my voice. youll be angry but it was your fault. i dont wanna hear your f-cking name im so tired of it. i shouldve never responded to your f-cking text. i know i wanted to make someone happy so that i'd be happy but why did you have to like me. you were older than me how did you think it was okay. i never even liked you why did i send you those things??? and why did you beg for them like a little f-cking kid

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