Pretend your having one last conversation with them.

akai 6/3/2021 05:49 pm 2137

pretend this is the last conversation your having with the person who hurt you the most, pretend I’m them, feel free to scream, cry, insult me, pretend I’m them, and you can say whatever you want to me.

here’s mine:

TW: su!c!d3

after all I did you just left? After all the hours I spent laying in bed waiting for a text back, the hours I spent checking up on you, the hours we laughed, cried, and smiled together you just left. No goodbyes or anything. Why? Just why. You know I’m so unstable and can’t handle emotions well at all, you knew I would be crying over you, and you still talk to all of my friends, you still talk to him. He hurt you didn’t he? He hurt me to. If only you had known, he pretended he was going to commit su!c!d3 after you made me leave him. But you still talk to him everyday. You look at me like I’m the one who hurt you, and maybe I did but you hurt me too, stop pretending I wasn’t there, I was, but your the one who left me. It’s not my fault. You could have at least said goodbye, I loved you.

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Littlepisser511
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Jul 19, 2021 12:29 am

Tw: Manipulation, swearing, Su!c!d3

Why the fuck. We broke up 2 weeks ago and now you fucking hate me, what did i do?! I was the one who fucking texted first. You knew i was mentally unstable, YOU FUCKING KNEW. But you used me, gaslighted me, guilt tripped me and all together made me feel like shit. And yes i may have been a liar, but I couldn't help it. after 3 years of a relationship, you tell me it was fake to make sure no one else was hurt and what the fuck? You said you loved me, you said you cared, Where the fuck did that go? All that love, then you stab me in the back and date my best friend and talk about how awesome it is with them and how they're so much better than me, Like wtf. You're the reason i wanted to Commit Su!c!d3. I just want you to know you fucking suck.

And i love you.

ArloSaysStuff
Member

Jul 18, 2021 11:21 pm

CW/TW: Mentions of 5u1c1d3, neglect of the self, use of a human being for 53x

Look, I can't put it in my heart to call you an intentionally bad person. I tend to see the good in people all the time, but that leads me to being as naive as I was. I didn't realize anything that you did, and now that I have I am fucking disgusted. You have made me realize how much of a joke I seemed to you. Sure, you may say that you love me, but all you did was hurt me. I felt guilty for doing basic human things like sleeping because I always put your needs above my own. I hated my tics and only had my mental state go down further.

All I did was try to help you and you wouldnt dare help me because you only focussed on specific things. I am a person! I'm not someone you can just use for when you're bored or fucking horny and then leave them to pick up the pieces when you tell them you're gonna commit suicide. I've had panic attacks because I saw that you were trying to call me. You never cared about my triggers, but I always cared about yours. It was always about you and yknow what? I just agreed to whatever you wanted.

I agreed to whatever the fuck you wanted because I felt guilty and bad if I didnt and you would continue to ask and ask and if I didnt agree you would get upset and might try to commit again. I shouldve seen the red flags when you said you only dated pre-t trans guys, when you said you thought I was a sub and you didn't give me any explanation, when you talked to me like I was a child, when you gave me those looks when I was talking about my mental illness.

My friend compared you to a creep in the way you speak to me. I can see it. You aren't my girlfriend, you're just another person who took advantage of my loneliness. I am a vulnerable man. You never even tried using mine or our boyfriend's pronouns once. You made fun of me during a kinshift and made me have a mental breakdown during it. You have traumatized me. You always sound like you're mocking me when I'm talking about my experiences. You never apologized for yelling even though you knew it triggered me. You viewed my tics as a form of amusement, didnt you? They arent funny

All I can say is: Fuck you, go get some fucking help. I am not someone you can use, I'm not your submissive uwu boi you can use when you're horny and then get uncomfy with when I wanted to do something I thought was fun that was sexual, I am not your therapist. I thought things were getting better, but they clearly weren't. I hope you like that block button.

catnoirmybeloved
Member

Jul 16, 2021 11:22 am

im so late but i need to let it out//tw manipulation, swearing

dude what the fuck. i was always there for you and you just left me. after seven fucking years. i always put you first even if my mental health was lower than yours. i put up with your shit and you threw that all away. i was the one to text first. i was the one who always responded. i was the shoulder to cry on. i was the listener and you took advantage of me. i was so considerate about you and your feelings and you NEVER did the same for me and the worst part is, i miss you. I MISS YOU SO FUCKING MUCH.i have spent HOURS crying about loosing you and i doubt you ever looked back on our friendship. i hope youre fucking happy.

vo1d_v1bez
Member

Jun 5, 2021 7:59 am

TW: abandonment, bullying

why? what was it that i did that made me deserving of being replaced? im sorry. for whatever it was. but you hurt me. you hurt me more than i thought i could be hurt. you took a child who never really had friends and pretended to be friends, only to drop them when they no longer served you any use. you stood by and watched all of those people ridicule me, hurt me, and when i called out to you, when i asked for your help, you stared. you swore to me, you promised-you promised-you'd never let that happen to me. when i told you id stand by you no matter what happened, i meant it. when you said the same thing, i guess it was a lie. just sweet words to keep me around to take the punishment for your actions. i ruined my friendships just to keep you around. because you threatened to leave me. you threatened to leave when i did something you didnt like, when i hung out with my other friends. when i tried to help you, tried to make you feel better, you just warped my words, turned me against myself. and after all of this, you left me. you replaced me while i was still there. and you hurt the one who you replaced me with. and you hurt our other friend. leaving you was the best and worst thing i had to do. i was and am terrified of moving on with my life, because you could be there. you could remember me. you could torment me even more. but i cant let you hurt me anymore. youll still be there, in my memories, and youll still be a sore spot. because some wounds heal and never leave any trace, and some wounds leave their scars. but you wont continue to bleed. so i guess this is goodbye. i hope youre doing better now.

TW: religion, adults, death, manipulation

you know what? fuck you. you knew better than to do what you were doing. you were an adult and i was a child. we were all children. you hurt me. you made me doubt everything i knew. you used my anger, my frustration, for your own gain. you even admitted it, to other adults who got it back to my parents, that you did what you did to make me upset, to get me passionate, in order to use that to make others talk. you told me you thought i was bright, that i had a future, then turned against me. you took my words-the words i wrote for you because you asked me to, because i wanted to write about this-and you claimed them as your own. you know, plagiarism is a crime, right? i could take you to court. but im not. not because im not angry, not because it doesnt mean that much to me, but because i was and am a legal child. not only that, but you knew that the others, who were you younger than me, had been raised not to know or understand anything other than this religion. they were taught not to question god. and you used that against them. you, who was supposed to teach us, instead used that against us and scared us into believing. i dont know how you got it into your mind that it was a good idea to tell 12-year-olds that they were going to die, that everyone they loved was going to die, within a week, and the only way to save themselves from burning for eternity was to believe in god. newsflash fucko, it was the worst thing you could have done. you do remember those kids crying, being terrified, those babies you fucking traumatized, right? you remember how they came over to me and hid, how they held onto me for dear life, the way sobbed and said that they didnt want to die, right? i hope you do. i hope it haunts you to your grave. i hope you have to attone your your crimes. im glad youre gone. dont come back.