umm vent/rant maybe?? help... (possible tw??)

Deleted Account 11/17/2021 07:03 am 367

i hate to be that guy,,, but

basically theres this guy im talking to and like he kiinda sucks... but like not really????

most of the time hes really sweet and caring and he loves me a lot and its all just good an <3333 eee

but sometimes he'll be really mean.. like for no reason at all.
he calls me stupid, crazy, fat,,, he makes fun of me for acting like a child sometimes,, he mocks me,, etc etc etc
like last night he was getting mad at me an then like 30 minutes later he was flirting w me and makinf me feel all safe as if nothing even happened??
sometimes he purposely scares me,, like he'll call me adnd tell me hes outside my house,,,
he'll purposely make me dissociate, tell me hes not real or that hes just like a part of my imagination and stuff
sometimes he even just blatantly talks about other girls right in front of my face, like last night he kept talking about how badly he missed his ex.. and im just like "ok..."

like i cant tell if he really cares about me at all i literally cant tell when hes just trying to mess with me or when hes serious and its honestly rlly messing with my brain !! and i genuinely do not think i have the courage to leave him. like im jsut so pathetic that i think that maybe he'll change and be nicer, but idk.

hes not as bad as im making him out to be i think