Question for systems

BunnyBoyDeku 4/26/2023 03:10 pm 393

Hi, so I'm kinda questioning stuff like the possibility of me having did but I'm not entirely sure. I have some of the symptoms, and often when I dissociate or zone out I feel different, personality wise. But I'm not sure if it would count as switching. Not everything changes, but part of my identity feels different (I actually tend to get confused about my appearance when this happens, sometimes it gets so bad I don't recognize myself physically or mentally). I know technically I have at least one "alter" who's in control when I regress (sometimes they front at random times which is confusing) and I was also thinking I just kin certain fictional characters but it's definitely stronger than that. Idk how to explain that part. But I know it's definitely all linked to trauma

So my main question here is, from this short explanation, is there a possibility I'm part of a system? (Still using "I" because I have no idea)

Another question, is it possible to have a system almost entirely filled with fictives, and/or a system with very few alters, and are those still valid?

/gen q

Update: a new alter(?) just introduced themself

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vampirefir
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Apr 26, 2023 5:34 pm

Also another note- whatever it is, if it causes distress and disruption in your life, I’d recommend seeing someone for it. Dissociation could always be something else and that has to be ruled out (ours was partially caused by another medical condition which is now being treated)

It’s good to get treatment for dissociation and trauma in general as well, to help deal with it and process/heal.

Sending best wishes and some

vampirefir
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Apr 26, 2023 5:31 pm

1. There is the possibility.
—> switching isn’t always black and white- just like individual people can be similar, alters can be as well.
—> not recognising yourself could be depersonalisation, which is a form of dissociation

2. Very very possible. id even say, from my experience, many/a majority of systems are “small” (2-9 or so)- it’s the larger systems that bring up an average. Spiders georg sort of thing.

ALSO TO NOTE: you don’t need to specifically have DID/OSDD to be a system! Sometimes labels just don’t fit and that’s ok

—> I am not an expert, this is just my lived experience from having DID and interacting with others who do.

lupinsdiscordkittenz
Member

Apr 26, 2023 5:03 pm

@shaneskitten: but we also have osdd

lupinsdiscordkittenz
Member

Apr 26, 2023 5:02 pm

yes!!! we are all mostly fictives lol but we normally use i me myself etc cuz we dont like using we unless were talking abt us as a collective

50_shadez_of_green
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Apr 26, 2023 3:54 pm

even if you dont have did, i would def recommend finding some sort of community of people who relate to you, just cuz it helps to navigate stuff and understand yourself better

its also alwayz v helpful to have a safe space (^-^)

Atley
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Apr 26, 2023 3:49 pm

i dont know if you can have a system of only fictives, but you can definitely be fictive heavy. we certainly are. smaller systems, (I.e systems w/ a low alter count,) is totally normal! and valid.

In our experience, we thought our system was much smaller when we first discovered we were a system, but that is because our gatekeeper hid a lot of our system members from us. some alters also werent ready to be known about, and some alters had been dormant.

Unfortunately, i do not know you well enough to determine if you are system. it seems like you are experiencing dissociation, I would recommend tracking all your symptoms and look into other types of dissociative disorders. we wish you the best of luck in your journey.

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