If i was a man my life would be so easy omFG. I Wouldnt have to go through questioning my entire existince every time i look in a mirror. I would be free from judgement and straight disgust from my entire family. I could wear masculine clothes without having to make sure i look masculine enough. I could have short hair without being called a weirdo for having it. I could live life without crying everytime someone called me by some weird feminine name that I didnt ask for. If i was born a man i wouldnt have to go to gender therapy every week. I didnt choose to be a female so why am i so pressured to be one? If someone wanted to be a doctor not a chef, why would people want them to be a chef if they know they want to be a doctor? Why cant i just live for five minutes without my mom telling me im not feminine enough. No wonder i dont look feminine enough, its because i dont want to be feminine. Coming out was the hardest thing ive ever done and the fact that my mom sent me to therapy a day later? Its not like i want to start Testasterone and get a D rn, Im fucking 13. I have nobody to talk abt it to besides my therapist, and everytime i see him he asks me every single time my name and it makes me want to fucking kill himm. Im not going to UN trans because your stupid therapy made me realise im just a confused nieve little girl who got onto the internet. IM a fucking MAN and it wont change so stFU and let me live. I hate everything but theres nothing to do about it. I could run away but them what? Ill have nobody AND be a homless little girl begging for money untill i give up and go back home, then get scolded for hating everything. UGH why me. why cant life just be easy. Why cant i just be a happy little rich girl whos only worries are what kind of dressing i want on my salad. FUCK
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