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in school ive been doing really well this year and my grades are way better then they use to be because ever sense I moved like across the country I've been trying to get better grades and every other grade I've barely made it to the next grade but my mom doesn't even act like it matters at all she just expects it yknow and doesn't even try to be happy for me and it makes me feel super unappreciated to the point I'm actually starting to get closer to my step dad then my own mom and she says all the time she doesn't wanna abe like her mom and her mom wasn't excepting at all but I just keep seeing stuff like that she doesn't care about the things I go through to try and make her even notice I exist cause my sister gets straight As every year so it just feels like my mom doesn't even love me anymore like shes never happy around me I say hi to her and she igornes me and shes been yelling at me over things I cant even control my bf got expelled from school right before Halloween and asked my mom if I could go trick or treating with him and she yelled at me about how his mom isn't punishing him and letting him go trick or treating and she literally only happy when shes watching tv or talking to anyone other then me and she never says sorry to me for yelling at me for things I cant control she never listens to my side and compares me to my sister all the time and says that if I don't get my act at shes gonna kick me out as soon as I turn 18 and I don't know what she wants from me and I don't know what to do to actually make her happy other then just never be around her or be a perfect robot that only says "ok" and "yes ma'am"

@firkles_Canon_father: Im sorry. I know what its like for people that know you have ptsd to just ignore that. I told my friend about what happened when i was younger and I told him not to touch my upper torso (Neck sholders ect) and he still puts his arm around my shoulder.

@firkles_Canon_father: ty for your support

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