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I literally can't do this anymore. I hate my life and myself, everything around me besides my only real friend. I can't help but think every of my friends fucking hate me besides her. She doesn't know how much she means to me and i don't know how i'm going to deal loosing her, i can't. I love her more than anything ever. We have plans to run away when we are 14, but i don't know if i can wait that long to leave, i just can't do it. She has saved me from kms more times than i can count, i'm only living for her and it's so hard to live when shes the only reason. I just cant i Actually can't. I have been staring at my go bag in my room for hours, just staring and im starting to fr shake bc im so scared. I'm scared of living, i'm scared of dying. I just can't.