vent

The_Kandiman 11/8/2021 06:43 am 331

i dont feel bad enough to complain or to do anything about my feeling but im still not feeling good

i have no motivation

i want to watch an old comfort youtuber but i feel like if i do it would be to convince myself that things are getting bad again when they're not

i think im faking all this for attention

i miss my adventure time monomania i was so happy

i miss finn and how welcome he made me feel

suddenly watching adventure time wasnt appealing anymore and onto the next monomania

i call it phd - post hyperfixation depression (i havent been diagnosed yet, though so im not sure if i can use the term hyperfixation)

is ocd neurodivergent? thats what i expect to get diagnosed for