How do you realize you're not okay?

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Mama_WeAllGo2Hell
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Mar 5, 2023 10:41 pm

when i realized i have an intense fear of judgement all of my confidence totally depleted. im not diagnosed, but i think i might have had social anxiety since like 6th grade. i was genuinely afraid to be myself. i became more of a realist than an optimist. all depressing/wrong/illegal things became normalized to me. i thought it was the norm for middle schoolers to be down and depressed. i didnt think the people on the bus would be so nosy and rude. when i actually started to show my emotions, i knew it was bad. whenever i cry, i know its bad. i never cry. ive always had an insane amount of self doubt built up in the back of my mind ever since i learned that the things i liked to wear and the things i were interested in were "weird." and the worst thing is i kinda like it. i dont wanna be better. i wanna keep suffering. i dont know why im like this, but i know its not normal and that im not "okay."

sorry if it doesnt make sense but uh yeah that was my complicated realization. this probably wont help but ig i had to get these thoughts out so i could make them make sense

Trever_The_OutcastX3
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Feb 27, 2023 8:50 am

I Get alotttt more angry and agreesive. I don't sleep at all when I'm not ok, and I thend to space out a lot, or get nothing done,

But if your not feeling your best, my DMs are always open!!

compost_in_training
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Feb 27, 2023 8:42 am

i realized when i started feeling like a sack of crap all the time and when i saw that i wasnt myself anymore

CottenCandy024
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Feb 27, 2023 8:20 am

the mcr song im not ok (i promise)

Sleepy_Loss
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Feb 27, 2023 7:25 am

emotionally, i feel disconnected from the world around me. i deal with hyper-empathy because of my neurodivergency, so that disconnect is really intense and alarming for me. i normally feel really drained. I lose interest in my special interests and comfort medias. being around my favorite people feels overwhelming instead of energizing. i forget most of my day by the end of it. i get incredibly touch starved, and no amount of touch feels satisfying anymore. when it gets really bad, i struggle to understand speech and reading, and lose my sense of reality. for me, this means i feel like i'm dreaming and struggle to believe that my friends and family are real.

physically, my body aches, especially my legs and the back of my head. my throat feels dryer than usual. i get frequent migraines and headaches. my face feels,,swollen, for lack of a better term. i become hyper aware of my breathing and blinking . my limbs feel heavy. physical contact hurts/itches.

i would reach out if you are experiencing any of this, i promise you, you are worthy of getting help and you deserve to feel better. therapy is really helpful, and has vastly improved my quality of life.

pinballwzrd
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Feb 26, 2023 3:05 pm

i start lashing out at people more, getting more reclusive, wearing my headphones 24/7, and i get chronic rbf (/hj but i look more tired and upset)

xXToasted_TreasureXx
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Feb 26, 2023 6:52 am

I tend to not like my happy songs and relate to sad song eaiser/listen to sad stuff more often

Feellicks
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Feb 25, 2023 9:34 pm

usually I try to notice my behavior changing. I'll find myself being more reclusive, my sleep habits change, eating habits change, and I'll fall back into old habits. I also try to focus on my mood. maybe I'll be more irritable or grumpy, or feel listless and gloomy. if things get really bad and I know I'm going thru an episode and look for things like being careless (not looking both ways crossing the street, not wearing seatbelt, etc) or actively harming myself. sometimes my hallucinations and delusions get worse (I experience psychosis due to schizoaffective bipolar)

if you are experiencing any of these things please reach out to someone you can trust, or an adult you can trust if you are a minor. things can get better I promise. if you have a therapist or psychologist/psychiatrist please let them know.

message me if you need any advice