rant and pls don’t judge me

merbyler 3/26/2022 08:22 am 229

cw// jealousy

uhm I really hate admitting this bc it makes me look like such a toxic person but

i really feel sad when my crush hangs out with other people. like I literally feel sick. they’re supposed to go to a dance tonight and I’m scared they’re gonna meet someone and like them and stop talking to me and I’m just really scared and I hate acting like this I don’t know what to do I’m sorry

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wannabewitch08
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Mar 26, 2022 10:23 am

@urloverboy: i'm poly too and i may or may not do it with like multiple people? three to be exact, all of which are friends and one of which is poly too so idk i feel weird being so clingy towards them all when im poly and one of them is poly. its really good that all of us are admitting these things though because acceptance is a really important step in getting better

Lord_Cookie
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Mar 26, 2022 10:15 am

@urloverboy: it takes time and its pretty hard to deal with sometimes. but denying something is wrong is the worst way, ignoring it makes it more intense, repressing it makes it more intense, it sucks honestly. - charlie

natluvscats688
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Mar 26, 2022 10:11 am

@Lord_Cookie: @_keroppi_: n3onw0rmi:

whew its good to know yall feel the same way-

i try not to let my partner know i think abt that and like i get so jealous seeing as im literally poly and it sounds hypocritical but grrr i want them all myself

wannabewitch08
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Mar 26, 2022 9:57 am

im actually so glad to know other people are experiencing this too, i thought i was alone. my bestfriend/crush is in the grade above me and we dont have any classes together so i get really clingy towards them and i always feel empty or alone when theyre not around. it's a really hard thing to experience and the only recommendation i can give is to try your best to let loose, meet other people, and don't be afraid of losing someone because the amount of times youll lose someone and find someone even better in your lifetime is unimaginable. try to be open and welcoming to change because it could be for the better, you don't have to fully distance yourself from your crush but just try to start being okay with little change

Lord_Cookie
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Mar 26, 2022 9:36 am

hey, i deal with similar. i have obsessive love disorder and have been obsessing over this guy i nicknamed catboy, hes literally all i can think about and hes also become one of my crushes (im polyam) and i feel so jealous whenever i see these girls jokingly flirting with him and making him uncomfortable, we're really close but i keep getting so touchy and so obsessed. i feel sick not getting messages or being left on read for a short while, stare at my phone on his contact, and when hes sick i feel so empty. i feel very protective and often catch myself wanting to just "keep" him like an object, i obviously try my best not to act on these feelings and ive succeeded so far. i sadly have no advice, however it isnt just you if that helps in anyway. the only advice i can offer is possibly to slowly stop talking with him as much, not cut him off but also meet other people. - charlie

rant and pls don’t judge me

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