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tw: ed reference

im hungry

i feel freaked out, mad, and i guess proud of myself-

cw: mentions of throw up and pills

i was just vibing with my friends and all of a sudden my friend that i will call K threw up. it took me a few seconds to process what happened but when it registered in my mind I went into parent mode, I told someone to tell the nurse and then I used my water to wash their hand and their hair and then I gave them the rest to drink. I walked them to the nurse after and they told me their dad gives them some pill and it hurts their stomach, its some medication that they got from their doctor, when we got there i stayed for a while, i was late for class at this point but my friend didn't wanna be alone cause they we still really shaky and I was helping them breathe but the nurse got mad at me for being there so she told me I had to go to class but she wasn't gonna write me a late pass, so now I have a unexcused late thing but I don't care, as long as my friend was fine, they ended up going home

tldr: my friend threw up and so i took them to the nurse but the nurse got mad at me for being there so i got in trouble

School's been making me feel like shit recently- feels like there's too many things to do and everything feels like a blur; it's super tiring. I've just been feeling kind of eh for a while; a lot of the things I liked to do, like drawing, have kind of like,, disappeared? they're still things I like, but I feel like I don't have the energy to do them :/ -- friends have been very nice though, they give me a little bit of energy. Dysphoria's also been hitting me rlly hard lately, bc I feel like there isn't anything I can do to fix or help it--- Feels like I haven't been myself lately.

i have a problem with stress eating and food hoarding / stashing due to food insecurity when i was young and it has been getting bad and my family is getting really mad at me about it and that's stressing me out and the cycle continues ive been gaining a lot of weight in the last few years its been getting way worse lately and its starting to get hard to do stuff i used to do easily

I’ve had lots of dysphoria lately. I dont own a binder at all, and I would really really like one. I have so much dysphoria about my chest. I also have hair that reaches my shoulders. Its not too too long, but it still gives me dysphoria. Ill probably be able to get a haircut soon, but it might be weeks. So, Im going to keep having bad dysphoria until I get a haircut and/or a binder. But, I probably wont be able to get a binder or anything similar for a long time either.

I’ve also struggled with feeling like a horrible person lately. Ive been feeling so manipulative. Ive talked to my best friends about it, and they have assured me that Im not manipulative, but I still feel like Im so horrible.

But, Im back in in person school, which Im extremely happy about, because last year during virtual school was the worst year of my entire life. So, if been doing kinda good, kinda bad. -Klaus (He/They)