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i will actually lose it if my hands are dry, but at the same time, i HAAATE having lotion on my hands.

i hate the feeling of bedsheets against my hands or feet if theyre dry, so i always have socks on. i just hate my feet touching anything actually, i literally ALWAYS have socks on

i also absolutely HATE sudden loud noises, will shut me down every time, but it's different when im listening to music cus i listen to heavier stuff so idk lmao

the feeling of tight jeans, i try to make them as loose as I could because I like how they look and they are casual, hair in my face, specifically my baby hairs I hate how they feel and they always touch my nose or eyelid i hate it sm, and to have like glue on my hands after a craft project I want to like rip off my fingertips cuz it bothers me sm, and loud sounds like for example balloons popping, and silverware like clashing with each other idk if that make sense, makes me cringe and hurts my ears a ton

when there's a squeaky chair, like idc what type of chair it is, but if it's squeaky.... i literally want to cry and throw up at the same time.

i can't handle the sound of people snapping. it just hurts my ears and makes me cringe.

i HATE the feeling of chalk. it makes me gag and it also makes my hands dry so it just makes everything worse.

i also have a few sensory issues with food but there's too many to count sadly... mainly tomatoes...

Lawn mowers and vacuums. I came out to a guy@#$%ing aerating my lawn on Tuesday, shouting and gesturing for him to STOP. Instead of turning the machine off, he walked across the street to his truck and brought back a piece of paper with a name and address on it. I pointed at my door, which has my address on it in very large reflective letters. The whole time I'm telling him to stop and leave he's grinning like he's done me a huge favor. "It's good for the lawn." "I DON'T CARE! TURN IT OFF! NOW! I HAVE PTSD!" "Well at least you don't have to pay for it." "YOU'RE DAMN RIGHT I'M NOT PAYING FOR IT! TURN! IT! OFF!" He thought all this was hilarious.

Anyway he finally left and I had a total terror meltdown, accompanied by extreme pain from having to remove and replace my back door the night before (long story) and spent the day in bed.

Faucets, sinks, and showers running. Kills my ears and I can't stand being in the same room as that sound for longer than 10 minutes or I lose it, it hurts so badly and I just need to go away. My ANC earbuds kinda help but not enough. I also cannot stand to have music and conversations happening at the same time. The most auditory input I can take at once is MAYBE two at a time. Like I can't do VC, movie, and game, I can only do two. Same with IRL, I cant stand talking in the car if theres music playing at all.

Food I eat has to be the same consistency in texture, like I can't have squishy stuff with normal stuff, so like if i take a bite of chicken and i bite into a softer part of it my entire appetite is gone and ruined and i dont want to eat anymore. I can't mix these foods its just wrong and I can't stand it. Crunchy and smooth is also a big "i hate that so much and i can no longer eat it", like crunchy peanut butter is the worst and gelatin with harder bits stink...

I hate wearing clothing, but I need to cuz u know, clothes. I can wear light and breathy clothing but a lot of polyesters and cottons are poopoo sensory wise...

On the topic of fabrics- velvets, microfibers, and some fleeces i can't touch or my head starts screaming at me as well as my fingers. Luckily I'm ok with silk or materials similar to silk so I can use like silk bedsheets. unfortunately I cant have wrinkles underneath me because its a nightmare I have to have all my sheets and cases neat and smooth and nice.

I can't have my hands be sticky, oily, wet, or too dry. I have to have them at a perfect level of moisture and cleanliness or else I can't function to grab stuff or work with anything with my hands. Worst case scenario I clean my fingertips and function like a crab just pinching things to grab them. On the subject of hands, I can't stand having my fingernails longer or at my fingertips. They MUST be as short as possible or I cant use my hands because my fingernails also touch the thing I'm touching. I also can't wear nailpolish because it makes my fingernails feel like they're smothered and evil or something idk how to explain it it just drives me nuts.

All of these make me want to slam my head into the nearest wall because I just cant stand them at all. I'm able to restrain myself from doing that but occasionally I hit my head because I'm near meltdown. I just, wegh.... sensory issues are stinky..