Vent again /neg TW CUSSING AND SOME CAPS

timaeusTestified 9/23/2021 02:13 pm 247

I hate this. I swim competitively but i don't want to do it most of the time bc it doesn't make me happy like it used too. i'd rather play volleyball and cosplay. I feel like i'm doing it just to make my mom happy. I feel like almost everything i do is to make someone else happy. I'm being mean to my friends and idk why bc they are some of the only people who are nice to me at this point. I hate school and essays. Every time my teachers give us homework i feel so much pressure that i need to be perfect its overwhelming so i just don't do it. I don't get my phone unless i swim on the highest level but i can't because i'm to slow even though i have made the group before i left bc i didn't wanna swim like that anymore and i feel like my mom is bribing me to swim because she knows i want my phone back but i didn't do jack shit to get it taken away in the first place. i hate my stupid teachers saying "close your laptops!" then tells us to open them 2 seconds later. my dumbass teachers WHO HAVE MICROPHONES are YELLING and the MICROPHONES are at FULL VOLUME. Then my science teacher who says she has "health problems" and yet rarely wears her mask and tells the kids who aren't wearing it correctly to correct it. mf wants more health problem evidently...

Plz help idk how to convince my mom that i don't wanna swim. i've tried telling her i don't like doing it but she won't listen to me.