alright, here goes nothing. im gonna acknowledge this piece by piece, considering it has so many layers
#1: the forum: I knew what kind of talk that forum would introduce. I posted it anyway, thinking maybe it wouldn't be so bad. I was wrong. My judgment was CLEARLY blurred by my own opinion, anger, or other things. Nevertheless, I screwed up. big time. whether my opinion was right or wrong (and at this point, I'm questioning that myself) I had no place to put it on this site like that, or, at all.
#2: my behavior: I am ashamed. I was clearly rude, abrasive, hostile and I said horrible things, I was certainly in no way shape, or form in the right to say anything like THAT. I'm ashamed another alter had to stop me, im upset that I caused others hurt. im ashamed that i wasnt acting in plur, the whole BASIS of this community.
#3: deleting the forum: Nobody mentioned this, so I suppose I should because it's been weighing on me. I freaked out and deleted the forum, honestly to stop the fighting and any backlash for my behavior.
im sorry. i won't ever do something like it again. - seb