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I stole my gender from ghost's music and also from matryoshka (vocaloid music) /j

in reality here's how it really went

When I was a really little kid I once said to my mom, "I feel like I have the body of a girl but the soul of a boy." I genuinely didn't mean it in a transgender way, I just meant it as 'my body's gender and my soul's gender aren't the same.' And then I didn't question my gender again for a solid 7 some odd years.

At the end of 8th grade, I started cosplaying because I was bored during quarantine and I had seen some other people do it and I thought it was cool. My first cosplay was a girl, so I used my honkers to my advantage (I'm afab btw), but my next was a guy, so I had to find a way to make them smaller. I bought a shitty binder from amazon and used sports bras to compress even more because it did not work at all. Then one day, I wondered why I was so obsessed with making my chest so flat and why I enjoyed it so much.

I already identified as pansexual, so I was very open to exploring my identity, luckily. I went with girlflux for a while, because some days I felt more nonbinary than others. I even wound up making bracelets to represent she/her and they/them so my family would know. But after a few days, I noticed I was always wearing both, never one or the other, so I went back to exploring identities.

At the time, I was going by Olivia online, because I was told not to use my real name and it was my middle name, so I always thought to myself, 'if I were nonbinary, I'd want to go by Olive. But I already like my name and identity, so I don't want to use that name.' Well, 12 year old me, guess what happened.

Eventually I put 2 and 2 together and started going by Olive and they/them pronouns, but then I started getting misgendered as male in public and uh oh gender crisis. I went through a brief they/he period, but nowadays I just use any pronouns, except for she/her and it/its, because they make me feel uncomfortable. The current label I use for my gender is just nonbinary, but if there even is a label to describe my gender perfectly, I'm in no rush to find it some labels I considered briefly in the past are genderfluid, mutogender, agender, pangender, bigender, and a whole bunch more I've forgotten.

To any other kiddos struggling with gender identity, don't worry, you'll find it soon enough. And always remember that expression or pronouns don't equal gender, so use whatever you like to find what suits you best!

Mine was in my closet /j

In actuality I started questioning it when I was 12 (I'm 13 1/2 now). I've settled on trans ftm, but in all actuality I'm probably a demiboy or maybe even boyflux. I think I'm just going to settle on ftm though because in all honesty I'll call myself a boy no matter what and use he/it no matter what. I really don't care too much about the specifics. I guess it's also easier to explain to people. I use he/him and I'm like "yay boy" and then I use it/it's and I'm like "yay boyish type thing". Part of it is the way I dress. I always bind but I dress pretty fem a lot of the time, and pretty masc sometimes. My moto is "fuck gender, wear whatever you want". So that's about it.

but anyways i am cisgender(ish?) but i go by lemon/lemons, and others (on my profile) because my uncle died of a brain tumor when he was 60 odd. he developed it when he was 20 or so. i loved him so much, im not sad he died, he wasnt living, he was surviving. i loved him. i didnt want him to be how he was. but we could both eat lemons like apples so yeah

Listened to Cabinet Man by Lemon Demon /j

But for real though, I heard about people using they/them and was like "sick, no gender." Then I heard about people using it/its and was like "yesss, even less gender." I go by they/it right now.

I called myself sir on accident