honestly i identify as a trans dude but like. not binary... but also Not nonbinary. like im a FULL BOY. but just not your version or any other person's version of a boy. i love the version of masculinity that lives in my head. i dont wanna identify as non-binary but i also do????????? only sometimes though. and then i get really scared that im just faking everything and im just a cis woman... the thought of being called like. a princess or just a girl like. revolts me or i literally cant picture it in my head. i dont really know how to explain my gender but i feel like im "nOt TrAnS eNoUgH!!!1!!!!111" a lot even though i hate it sometimes when someone refuses to use he/him and only use they/them for me. like i appreciate that youre at least not coming up and calling me a girl intentionally and i know i don't pass most of the time but please....... just use he/him bro its not that hard. also idk if this is an indicator of something but whenever someone uses they/them pronouns for me i feel like. disappointed. damn lol but TL;DR im not like other boys 1!!1!1!1