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@Shoyu_Ramen: thank you and tell alizar I love them, this means alot to me, I feel alot better. Your very very sweet. <3

I'm really lonely, I used to have so many family friends and people who I loved, a few of them ended up hurting me, or traumatizing me, and some moved away, and some just drifted away, I went from talking to my ex, and friends everyday to not having anyone, I imurse myself in other worlds and games, like fnaf, and in shows like adventure time because I can't cope with reality, if I think to much or leave myself with my thoughts I just spiral out of control, I feel so alone and left out. My sister used to always be there for me now she's there for my cousin more, when I got a major surgery no one called, or visited me, but when my cousin throws a fit about literally getting their phone taken everyone is there comforting her, I could have d13d from that surgery and no one was there. I just want to be happy but it's hard when you have to do it by yourself. I've gone through so much these past years, and I don't get any praise for how I've held up, all I get told is my room is messy, I'm lazy, I'm not good enough, no one recognizes that I've been through hell and back all they see is me struggling to keep my life together, I have school, and my room, and my chores, and my job, and my hobbies, and I still have to take care of myself on top of it all, I have no money, and I have to try and come up with some for my cats vet bills. I'm just over here trying not to lose it, to lose myself and yet I find myself losing it anyway. It's okay if you respond, it would actually be nice.