rant about my ex cuz I don’t know who to talk to /neg

r1ddl3_m3_th15 1/11/2022 05:55 pm 334

TW: SH,Manipulation,Implied su*c*d*e,swearing

I used to think he was amazing and looking back at it all it was was just him being a horrible manipulative bitch. We dated for 4 months: August to November. Almost every night I would worry tho. I worried about what would happen and if he would end it all. He made me cry 5 times just making sick jokes like that on call when I couldn’t do anything about it. I couldn’t just climb through a screen and save him. I never wanted to tell my parents because I felt like they would blame everything on me. I’m 13 for Pete’s ducking sake. I shouldn’t have to worry about all of that when I’m not even in high school.

He would always try to get really physical aswell, like hugging and kissing and stuff. A lot of it ESPECIALLY IN CLASS WHERE 12 OTHER PEOPLE CAN SEE US makes me extremely uncomfortable, and I voiced that opinion to him. He said he understood, but he would keep on, and whenever I said something about it from that point on he would get all pissy saying “oh do you want me to end all physical contact with you? >: (“ and jeez dude just don’t? There was also an instance where he wanted to kiss me on the lips (which I am def not comfortable with and by then everything had gotten old and I kinda wanted to break up w him) and I said no, and I kept stalling for days about the question. Eventually one day he was like “hey. Try something new you’ve never done it before” I really didn’t want to but I ended up doing it anyways and I hate myself for it. I eventually tried to break up with him one day. (Pay special attention to the word “tried”)

Yeah I said that I wanted to break up (I hate seeing people sad keep in mind) and he got all sad and I don’t blame him. But my feelings got in the way bc I saw someone sad and I ended up playing it off as a joke and I got back with him

Well couple of months later I end up breaking up with him again. He gets sad but I eventually get over seeing people sad. I go home, we buy groceries and I get back home. I got a text from him asking if we could talk about the day and stuff. I didn’t want to talk about it, it made me sick to the stomach. I did anyways. We talk a little and he starts begging me to restart our relationship? No! This goes on for a minute then he starts going on a sorta rage and this is the point I decided to just block him. He texted me saying he wanted to beat his head on a concrete wall because he was confused and he didn’t actually think I wanted to break up w him?? I did he was a fucking bitch. Then he started going on saying “oh you hate me it was an act”. If you honestly thought that for the 4 months we were together then you should’ve left me instead of taking it out on me with your male manipulator ways. This was on a Friday, so I lived in fear for the weekend.

If that’s not enough he never respected my prns or name, he would always get pissy whenever I corrected him. He always saw me as a girl. He also later tells everyone he’s a n30 n4z1 so