rant/vent about relationships

TotallyTurbo 11/29/2021 09:41 pm 176

//(slight)cursing, caps//

i've only ever had one partner and honestly i wouldn't care if the person i dated wasn't a total sh!thead. they constantly would make comments about my body and take my work as their own (like art and stuff) literally after a day of being together they decided, against my will, to tell everyone we knew. at the time we both used she/her, were female identifying, and i live in the south so like you can kinda see how that went. anyways i broke up with them because they kept harassing my friend because they thought i was cheating on them with that person, which i was not i would never do that, so i just broke up with them.

today in the hallway they shouted at my friend "don't trust them they'll ghost you and break your heart!" and it made me really upset and ruined my day.

yeah but my experience with them made me never want to date someone again and destroyed my self confidence. keep in mind we dated about a year and a half ago, so things have changed but i'm still anxious as hell and now i'm having even more problems

i CAN'T like AT ALL seem to develop a crush on someone anymore, like that part of me is gone. sure characters and random pretty people i see in pictures i feel attraction to, but not people at my school or any of my peers, i'm upset because all of my other friends all have partners and it makes me jealous kinda when they talk about how cool their partner is or yadda yadda

i know i don't need a partner or anyone but sometimes i seek someone like that to be there for me but i'm kinda worried i won't be able too anymore

yeah so there's a sneak peek on my life