I feel like everyone hates me and anything at all that boderline (haha pun) mentions anyone ever feels like it's about me. Like I desperately wanna ask and beg them to promise it's not about me but then it's kinda nullified because I asked them too and I feel like they're piting me because I'm so pathetic. Maybe like they're lying to my face about it. I wanna ask for comfort but I feel like a bother-- I'm fighting the urge to just fuck off of everything before I have to watch people go-