well... guess I'm back to being numb...

Trinityxyzz 11/18/2024 08:05 am 319

so ig tw? uh idk anymore

i thought things were getting better. ive been more confident, 15 days clean from sh and n!cot!ne, everything going good.

and then my friend joked about adding sa into a nove shes writing.

my mom went through my phone and found it

and she lectured me.

and it went off the rails

these are things i remember... everything else is blurred

"everything i do for you goes to shit."

"i lost my job, i lost my career..."

im done.

im seriously done.

like im just numb.

its a whole new level of pain when you cant even cry anymore

when you just breathe and accept it

im worthless

edit: y'all, thank you so much. i love yall, and no im not gonna @ttempt now. thank you

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4NT1_S0C14L
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Dec 3, 2024 4:55 pm

YOUR FRIEND SHOULD NOT JOKE ABOUT SA BC THAT IS SERIOUSAnd your mom shouldnt say that TO HER OWN CHILD like...But hey im proud of you for being clean for that long and if u need anyone then im here and everyone here supports u

graham439
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Dec 3, 2024 2:45 pm

wanna chat with me? i am going through the same thing.

Xx_Cr0w_xX
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Nov 18, 2024 9:56 am

Well, yeah.... That sucks. Im proud of you for being clean for so long though!

Trinityxyzz
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Nov 18, 2024 9:45 am

@SharxxyBaitXD: i've never tried slicing an onion... thanks

SharxxyBaitXD
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Nov 18, 2024 9:44 am

No. I know this sounds harsh, but you can't give up now. Not after everything you've tried. Trust me, it will get better. You will grow up, get a job. Have your own house where you don't have to deal with your sh1tty mom ever again. If your feeling numb then I'm so sorry, but slice an onion and try to make yourself cry. It will feel good. I really hope you get better.

Omga_xD
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Nov 18, 2024 9:36 am

sweetie no im so sorry dude, i had a similar experience recently, you can get back on that streak, you can beat that monster he is stupid and doesn't deserve ur dopamine please don't sweetie I love you the world is so sosososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososososo much better with you in it please stay

I just don't know what to do anymore as well, I'm here to talk to if you need anyone sweetie :3 I hope you can recover from whatever bs people are putting you through, why the fuck would someone joke about putting sa into a novel dude that shit sucks so much I hope we can recover together, I've been 5 days clean off of $31f h@2m I know we can take this journey together, please take it with me, lets get out of this shit sandwich together

i_love_my_friends
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Nov 18, 2024 9:26 am

thats so wrong why would she get mad at you for it if it wasnt your idea and your no the one that broght it up first? im sorry you had to go though that your not worthless and im sorry you feel that way i wish i could help more, im glade you stayed clean for 15 days, and please dont do anything drastic