DesiiDamage 8/28/2015 12:01 pm 1270
So I'm currently a sophomore in high school, in marching band, AP English, and two orchestras. Lately I've just been really stressed and depressed. I really just want to relapse, go back to the blade. I went over a year without it and then relapsed, I'm currently 6 months clean. But it's so hard and I'm falling apart and in just.. M I don't know what to do. I need a friend and I just.. Idk. Right now I'm posting this in 6th hour, I had panic attacks all throughout first and second hour, and then cried, LIKE EVERYONE SAW ME in 4th hour. And I still have to stay after school because ml marching band is playing at tonight's football scrimmage. Idk. I'm so down, I just need a friend I guess or something. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT OR NEED. I'm falling apart.